Anxiety and Control: Why Letting Go Feels Impossible
The Part of You That Can’t Let Go
You reread the message before hitting send.
You rewrite your to-do list again even though nothing changed.
You lie awake at 2:00 a.m., replaying the conversation you had earlier, scanning for what you should have said differently.
You wouldn’t call it panic. But something in you feels like if you don’t stay one step ahead, something might fall apart.
This isn’t about being overly organized or a perfectionist. It’s a pattern, one your body may have adopted long ago where control became a lifeline. A strategy. A way to feel safe in a world that hasn’t always felt steady.
If letting go feels not just hard but unsafe, you’re not alone. And it’s not something you’re doing wrong; it’s something your nervous system has learned to do right to protect you.
Why Control Often Rises from Anxiety
Anxiety isn’t always loud or obvious. Sometimes it shows up in subtle ways:
A need to plan everything in advance
A racing mind that won’t quiet down unless every detail is settled
Trouble relaxing unless things are “just right”
A flood of tension when someone changes the plan
Guilt when you aren’t productive or proactive
These aren’t personality quirks. They’re adaptive responses, ways of creating certainty in the face of inner or outer chaos.
If your body is used to unpredictability, staying in control might feel like the only way to breathe. Like the only way to not get hurt.
Control as a Protector, Not a Problem
In trauma-informed therapy, we often explore how protective parts of you, the ones that plan, scan, organize, or over-function have served an important role. They may have stepped in early in your life, when chaos or inconsistency shaped your environment.
Maybe you learned to anticipate others’ moods to stay emotionally safe.
Maybe you became the responsible one, the achiever, the fixer, because someone had to hold things together.
Maybe being in control kept you from falling apart.
These patterns deserve respect, not shame. But they can also become rigid or exhausting when they keep you from accessing ease, spontaneity, or rest.
Learning to loosen your grip doesn’t mean betraying these parts. It means learning to listen to what they’re afraid of and helping them trust that you’re not alone anymore.
What Letting Go Actually Feels Like
Letting go sounds lovely in theory. But for many people, the moment they try to relax, something tightens.
You try to take the afternoon off, but your stomach clenches.
You let someone else take the lead, but your mind races.
You say yes to rest, but the guilt floods in.
This is not a failure of willpower. It’s a physiological response.
If your body has been living in fight-or-flight mode, relaxing can feel threatening. In fact, it can increase anxiety until your system learns how to recognize safety from the inside out.
This is where real nervous system work begins not with “letting go,” but with creating the conditions where letting go becomes possible.
What Therapy Can Offer (That Control Can’t)
Control often says: “It’s all on me.”
Therapy gently says: “You don’t have to hold this alone.”
At Tidal Trauma Centre, we work at the pace of your system, not by asking you to stop controlling things, but by helping you understand what that control is doing for you.
Here’s how some of our modalities support that:
Internal Family Systems (IFS) allows you to build a relationship with the part of you that holds control, without judgment. Instead of fighting or overriding it, you begin to understand its fears, its role, and how it’s been trying to protect you. Often, what it’s guarding is a more vulnerable part that didn’t get to feel safe.
Somatic Therapy helps you notice how control lives in the body in clenched jaws, shallow breaths, stiff shoulders. You’ll learn how to gently shift those patterns using movement, grounding, and micro-moments of permission. It’s not about forcing calm, but allowing regulation.
EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing): If earlier experiences are still living in your system, times when losing control led to pain or danger, EMDR can help you reprocess those memories. Many clients find that their grip begins to soften when the system no longer feels trapped in a loop of threat and responsibility.
AEDP & Emotion-Focused Therapy (EFT): These relational approaches offer co-regulation, being with someone who can hold emotional intensity without fear or retreat. In that space, you may feel what it’s like to not be in charge and still be okay. That experience changes everything.
Letting go isn’t about giving up, it’s about learning how to feel safe enough to rest.
Real-Life Example: “I Couldn’t Not Be in Control”
One client shared:
“I thought I wanted help with anxiety, but when my partner offered to plan a weekend away, I micromanaged every part of it. Not because I didn’t trust them, but because my body didn’t know how to relax unless I was managing everything.”
That moment became a doorway in our work, not to push her to let go faster, but to slow down and get curious. We discovered that a younger part of her had equated unpredictability with danger and for good reason.
When that part was finally heard, the grip loosened. Not through logic, but through care.
You Don’t Have to Let Go Alone
The part of you that holds control has carried a lot. It’s helped you survive, organize, succeed. But it may be tired. And it may be ready to rest, even just a little.
We’re here to help you build the kind of safety that doesn’t require hypervigilance to maintain.
Contact us or fill out a New Client Form to be thoughtfully matched with one or more of our therapists. If you’re ready, book a free consult or appointment.
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For some, relaxing triggers vulnerability. If you’ve historically only felt safe when you're on guard, rest may feel unfamiliar or even dangerous. Therapy helps create the internal and relational safety that makes ease possible again.
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You don’t need to have the full story to begin. Therapy isn’t about diagnosing your personality, it’s about noticing your patterns and helping your system feel more choice and range. Whether it stems from anxiety, trauma, or both, you deserve support.
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Not unless you want to. Somatic and parts-based work can begin with what’s happening now, how your body reacts to control and uncertainty and move gently, only reaching into the past if and when it feels useful and safe.
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